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| God has blessed me with an incredible family of friends. Thank you to everyone who has been praying for me and will continue to do so. Your prayers mean a lot to me.
Thank you to my coworkers who have continuously supported me. You guys are awesome.
Thank you to the Riverview girls, getting to know you guys has been incredible. I will miss you and have you in my thoughts and prayers while I'm gone, and I will be looking forward to coming back to hang out with you guys.
Thank you to everyone on leadership for your support and prayers. God has used you guys to push me and grow me in ways I never thought would be possible. You are a wonderful family to me and I am incredibly blessed to know you.
Thank you sister for loving me as much as you do ! I'll miss the crap out of you !
I will miss all of you while I'm gone ! See you in a month ! | | |
| Life is hard. Whether it's things going on outside of you, or inside of you... and whether people admit it or not, life is hard. Period.
I think one of the hardest things about "growing up" and becoming and adult is watching other adults... and seeing them as an adult. My Aunt Gayle is not doing well emotionally and mentally. Me and my sister used to spend the night all the time at her apartment when we were little. She always seemed so happy then. All the women in my family, when I was little, always seemed so strong and independent. And I see them now.. with all kinds of emotional problems, spiritual problems.. just all together jacked up.. and it's a sad and lonely feeling.
I got my passport in the mail today. Good times, exciting stuff. The countdown to my trip is one month and four days. Yikes. I'm excited but at the same time, I'm nervous... in a good way though.
If that's possible. | | |
| I got my first credit card the other day. It's because the people at Victoria's Secret would not stop harassing me so I applied for it so they would leave me alone. It usually isn't approved, but this time it is. I guess I'm building some credit after all.
I'm back to being hooked on coffee. I'm not even gonna lie. I need to stop drinking it before I go on my trip.
No updates other than that. | | |
| I've been having a lot of weird dreams lately.
I really need to do laundry.
I really want some chocolate.
How about that. | | |
| Prepare for a "deep" and long post. If you don't feel like reading or thinking, this isn't for you.
I read a disturbing article in a magazine at work about a week ago.. and it's been on my mind since. The article was about frat parties, college bars, partying in general, and women. Particularly college women. Apparently people who work in the pornography industry will go to a lot of these parties, wait until women get blasted (a lot of the time buy them the drinks !), and talk them into doing sexual things with other men and women at the parties... and film them. Sometimes they put stuff into their drinks, sometimes they just talk them into it. Usually they're pretty far gone, and afterwards they'll talk them into signing release forms so that they can put the videos on the internet, or sell them somehow. In the article they interviewed some of the women who went through it, and how absolutely shattered their lives were as a result-mostly with regret. Shame. Guilt. Ruined friendships, whatever. Some of the men at the parties would go into rooms where women were passed out from drinking and rape them, and film it.
Even people that don't work in the pornography industry would go into bars and wait for people to get wasted, take pictures of what they are doing with their camera phones, and send it to their buddies.
This is an awful thing for a LOT of reasons. The most obvious reasons would be the amount of absolute death and destruction people are bringing into their lives with the drinking alone... then add to it the sickos who are taping everything and making money for it, and even worse, raping the women there. Add to that the women who are AGREEING to do it and what they'll have to face the next morning when they wake up and realize what happened. The thing that is most disturbing to me is this...
My family likes to yell and scream a lot about the patriot act, and that Bush is taking away our privacy and our rights.. my Uncle Ray likes to even go as far to compare him to "Big Brother" from the book 1984. I don't know a lot about politics, and I don't care much about politics... but just from reading this article it hit me that in terms of being afraid of losing rights and privacy, we should be more afraid of EACH OTHER than the government (personally I'm not afraid of either, I'm just using this as a comparison). Cameras are getting smaller and smaller, and easier to carry around undetected. It's easy for people to film other people. It's easy for a regular person to get on the internet and find out a lot about you. The other day my roommate admitted that she got some of her friends to look into her boyfriends computer history, EVERYTHING, and send it to her, without him knowing it. Websites he's been on, conversations he's had with other people, emails he gets and sends. I was able to track my father down, who lives on the other side of the country and spent his time moving from place to place to avoid paying child support when I was sixteen, just using a phonebook program on the internet. The media is blatantly one sided on most issues they report on (if you want to worry about "brainwashing" as my family would put it, worry about the media before you worry about the government). They chase down and film celebrities all over the world (and that's probably getting increasingly easier with the type of film equipment that's out there). It's absolutely nuts. But I guess it's the world we live in. It's just a disturbing thought.
Why do we want to know so much about each other anyway ?
I think a lot of it is wanting to be right. "Brittany Spears drove her car with her baby in her lap, look how horrible of a mother she is, look at what trash she is" (funny comparison but what do you want, I do hair, I hear about it all day). "Bush didn't do enough for the people who survived hurricane Katrina" (yet how much did we do?).. Just some examples. Eh, just my opinion too I guess. I think as people we're pretty prideful and want to be right. | | |
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